No Future Part Three: Escape from No Future
Everything makes me nervous and nothing feels good for no reason.
Waking up, it’s rarely worth it – the same dark dread every morning.
Senior year here in Mahwah, a new world just around the corner,
Leave me behind, let me stagnate, in a fortress of solitude.
Smoking’s been okay so far, but I need something that works faster,
So all I want for Christmas is no feelings, no feelings now and ever again.
There is a faceplate all brown and red that stretches across my mouth,
It’s worn for protection, nobody gets in and nobody gets out.
I used to look myself in the mirror at the end of every day,
But I took the one thing that made me beautiful and threw it away.
I was a river, I was a tall tree, I was a volcano,
But now I’m asleep on top of a mountain, I’ve been covered in snow.
Yes, I have surrendered what made me human and all that I thought was true,
So now there’s a robot that lives in my brain and he tells me what to do.
And I can do nothing without his permission or wasn’t part of the plan,
So now in Rock Ridge pharmacy I will be waiting for my man.
But there is another down in a dungeon who never gave up the fight,
And he’ll be forever screaming, sometimes I hear him say, on a quiet night.
He says, “You will always be a loser, man. You’ll always be a loser now,
And that’s okay.”
notes:
This is a continuation of “No Future” and “No Future Part Two: The Days After No Future” from Airing of Grievances. When played live, it is usually played first, followed by Part One and Part Two.
Mahwah, NJ (as mentioned in “Fear and Loathing in Mahwah, NJ”) is the home of Ramapo College, where Patrick attended school.
Rock Ridge pharmacy – a pharmacy in Glen Rock, NJ (home town of the band).
“waiting for my man” – reference to “I’m Waiting for the Man”, a song by Velvet Underground, about a guy waiting for his drug dealer.